Some of the most incredible stories ever told are born out of adversity. This is a story of one brave girls steep climb battling a drug & alcohol-fuelled downward spiralled life to breathing fresh air at the top of her next mountain.
This is Cass’s story and journey to veganism..
As far as I can remember I’ve been fighting depression and anxiety. I spent my days completely wasted. Drinking myself into oblivion, I was so over life that I ended up with a nasty drug habit that had me come close to overdosing, these habits had taken a hold of me for several years and felt like an incredibly powerful evil demon latching onto the depths of my soul.
I was living my own worst nightmare. I knew I was going nowhere fast, but I couldn’t stop. Along with this came a thirst for more, more of the wrong kind of things to help drown out the emotions, that I now know was only feeding the monster within. There was no method to my madness, there was only my next high. My escape from reality. It’s easy to fall into bad habits, especially in your teenage years and early 20’s with such a culture around it and it’s even easier if you feel like your not in a place of good health to begin with dealing with stress and feeling pressured.
I was still battling chronic depression and nearly took my life. I was suicidal most days and just didn’t want to live anymore. I was close to hospitalisation and was desperately wanting to seek help because I knew I was coming closer to my end and felt one day I’d not wake up from my nightmare..
Once day, I started drinking late morning, we were going to a festival. I double-dropped, I just wanted that high. I was having a great time, until I wasn’t. I fell and started getting the shakes. I was having a seizure. I was lucky my friends were there and were not as fucked up as I was, they only took one pill. They took me to the mobile ambo who revived me.
This was a huge wake up call for me. Although I was using drugs and alcohol to escape my life, I knew I had to make a change, or I was going to die.
I went for help via my GP. The doctors prescribed me medication, I took it as a last resort and the feeling of a new dark had arrived, the brain fog was unbearable. I had never felt as scattered in my life and I knew I had to STOP FAST. I decided to quit everything. I spent a week in bed with the shakes to come off the drugs, I quit. First, I quit sugar, I quit drugs, I quit smoking, and then I quit drinking.
Thus, my fitness journey began, I knew to get off this medication it was going to take determination, dedication, support and hard work. I started training everyday at the gym until I was able to completely stop taking any medication and have maintained my fitness in order to live a happier and healthy life.
Then, I changed my diet. My transition to veganism was not a difficult one, having given up so much in the past it made it easy to give up dairy, to give up eating meat and to start eating a more nourishing plant-based diet. I’ve been completely sober now for 2 years, I wake up early feeling fresh, excited and ready to embrace each day, having made changes to my lifestyle, overcoming anxiety, saying goodbye to old friends, building deeper connections, and living a more meaningful, fulfilling life on purpose, with purpose. I’m happy, Life is so unbelievably beautiful and everything existing, co-existing has beauty in it, we only have a small amount of time here.
My message to anyone going through what I went through is get through it. Walk through the fire of your worst nightmare and make it through. Because life is worth living, don’t give up. Think about what you want in your life. Make up some goals, some dreams. Then, dedicate your life to chasing your dreams, goals and desires.
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